How’s that for a wishy-washy blog title? It’s so very true though. This year has seen some very extreme lows in our family but also some wonderful times and joyous milestones. I have been very sick these past few months, with little reprieve and staying positive has been almost impossible at times. My family is AMAZING. Without them I could never make it through this crazy disease process. I love you.
Thank you friends and family for all of your prayers and well wishes. On my worst days I found comfort in knowing that I was loved by you. When I thought about this post, I was going to write about all of the crazy shit that has happened to my body. I’m not gonna. 2009 really kicked the crap out of me and in doing so, my family; especially my partner in crime The Big C, suffered. Instead I’m going to focus on all of the good, positive things that have taken place.
Big and I celebrated 10 years together. I am so very thankful that we found each other. We have no doubt we are soul-mates and were meant to be. It’s trippy when you think about life and all of the choices that you make. Each decision you make, or don’t, brings you to where you are today. All of those if if’s-‘ if I didn’t do this or that I wouldn’t have found you’. We both are thankful (now) that our ex’es were complete jerks. We learned the hard way how we want to be treated and how important friendship and respect are. I love you honey!!
The Bean has really come a long way this year. She went from being unable to communicate with me and screams of frustration to using small phrases. She can express herself and for that I thank God and her wonderful ‘team’ at school. Her teacher, speech therapist, and physical therapist are amazing, wonderful women. This world needs more people who care about special needs kids like these women. Amazing! I am forever grateful.
OK, enough of all the sap. I’m taking all of the good with me from this year and leaving behind all of the pain and suffering. Good bye 2009. You were pretty wonderful. Sometimes.
My New Year resolution is to get to the point where my symptoms are under control by listening to my body better, eating right and being more proactive in my treatment. I want to will get well for the Bean 🙂