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Month: February 2011

My Gift

My Gift

Yesterday was the Bean’s birthday.  She woke up early and there was a gift from her momma on the kitchen counter waiting for her.  Wow! She said when she saw it.  A present!!!  I told her, yes, momma left it there for you to see first thing in the morning!  Well, she was excited as she LOVES presents.  What kid doesn’t?  Last year we had 2 birthdays for her.  One little family one on her day and then the big one on the weekend.  Well, after that it took us at least 2 months of telling her every day that it wasn’t her birthday, every day.  It didn’t help that she’s a Sproutlet and that dang Happy Birthday show with Chika is on each day.  Confused the heck out of her and was more proof that everyday was her birthday and Grampa and I were full of it.  Soo, this year we decided to tell her happy birthday, she’d get a gift from mom and we’d save all the festivities until the weekend party.

She has decided that she doesn’t want to be 5.  She doesn’t want to get any older actually.  She wants to be 3 so she’s closer to her sister’s age, but still older.  She happily ripped open her gift, and loved it.  Blueberry Muffin, a doll.  Now her Strawberry Shortcake has a friend! She loves it.  I love her. She is such an amazing addition to our family, and to our lives.  Each day I thank God that she is here.  My heart overflows with love for her.  She isn’t just special needs I often say, she just special.  Ok, here’s the thing.  We were getting her ready for bed and I was blabbering away at the Big C about something inconsequential and she pulls on my sleeve and says, “Yamma, You are my gift.”  Just like that, out of the blue and straight out of her precious 5 year old heart.  I almost started crying.  She’s amazing.

Thank You Lord for blessing me, again and again.

Bean's first day here! 5 years ago...
Counting my blessings

Counting my blessings

I love this shot.  I really kicked up the contrast and colors, but even with no touch up, it is a pretty flower.  These past few months for us as a family have been extremely challenging.  Lot’s of illness, family issues, money, surgeries, pain, I need to come back to simple to get through all of this.  As usual my Big C is amazing, incredibly helpful, he is my biggest fan.  I’m his although he says he loves me more.  pffff, haha.

I’m recovering from one of the worst intestinal bugs I’ve ever had.  It’s been about 2 weeks and I’m FINALLY starting to be able to keep food down.  Well, I lost weight!!  I’ve been stuck at a certain weight for 3 months now and this illness got me down 14 pounds, woot! I wouldn’t recommend the ‘barf and poop off the pounds plan’ but I got it for free so I’ll take it.  🙂  I went through a high fever and much pain and my mind would roll and roll whether I was awake or not.  I remember thinking, Is pain an emotion?  At time when the pain and sickness is so bad that I don’t think I can do it for one more minute-I can feel the depression like a physical pain. And when my body starts to heal of course the cloud gets lifted and even the pain doesn’t feel so bad.  You’ll have to excuse my ‘whoooaaaa’ little epiphanies, my brain is running behind a little bit.  I’m taking it minute by minute and getting back to simple. Family, flowers, all the things that make you smile.

OK. I’m coming back. Again.

until next time

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