Life in the Autoimmune Lane » depression

withdrawal- it’s what’s for dinner

Michelle — Mon, 25 Jul 2011 17:49:24 +0000

And breakfast and lunch. My hands are shaking so badly right now it’s near impossible to type. sigh. I am still undecided if going off my pain meds was a good idea or not. It’s really hard to think clearly when you are in withdrawal. And the same goes for pain. When you [...]

Please Stop The Pain For Chronic/Intractable Pain Sufferers

Michelle — Wed, 23 Mar 2011 20:56:25 +0000

I know, I’ve been invisible for quite a while now.. Still battling depression, it’s an ongoing thing. I need to get back ‘out there’ and posting is one of the things I need to do to feel good. I have a list of people I need to call/write/hug, and a house to clean, ha! [...]

Counting my blessings

Michelle — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 00:53:21 +0000

I love this shot. I really kicked up the contrast and colors, but even with no touch up, it is a pretty flower. These past few months for us as a family have been extremely challenging. Lot’s of illness, family issues, money, surgeries, pain, I need to come back to simple to get through [...]

I’m still standin. (yeah yeah yeah)

Michelle — Mon, 17 Jan 2011 01:03:00 +0000

Another month has gone by and lately I’ve been hyper-aware of how fast it’s flying. Markers are infusions and doctors visits. Everything in between has been an effort to make it through another day. It’s no way to live. My depression is a strong opponent. Each win for the other side sees me [...]

Dark Day

Michelle — Tue, 12 Oct 2010 05:54:19 +0000

I woke up this morning just feeling the depression before I even had my eyes open all the way. I’ve been battling it for weeks now, but today is/was different. I felt like I’d already lost the battle and I hadn’t even gotten out of bed. I know this is a chemical thing, and [...]

Depressed and optimistic, is that possible?

Michelle — Fri, 07 May 2010 23:16:15 +0000

I have dropped off the radar again. Not intentionally; the days just seem to meld into one long day, and I’ve been so sick, time is getting away from me. I haven’t talked to my best friend in at least a month. Again, not intentionally. I’ve written so many ‘I’m sorry’ emails [...]

Optimistic and Reconnecting

Michelle — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 09:59:25 +0000

I can honestly say these last few months have been pure torture. Pain, sickness, stress and depression. No exaggeration there. And yet, I feel optimistic. Why? Because God is with me, and the rheumatologist at the teaching hospital ROCKS!!! I asked him if he’d be mine, and he said yes! My new rheumy I mean. Big [...]

Late night randomness

Michelle — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 12:20:10 +0000

Infinity. I know that this is totally random, but when I got on tonight to post, I noticed this icon that I have probably seen a million times and never bothered to see what it was. So I clicked it, and it’s a dialog box for custom characters. [...]

Tenacious Tuesday

Michelle — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 21:11:17 +0000

I used to work in a drug and alcohol inpatient rehab facility. That’s a mouthful. Each night I would come in and meet with the swing shift nurses and get caught up on who just came in, what their drug of choice is (that would determine their detox protocol) and who was the troublemaker [...]

I’ll have a zoloft sandwich, please

Michelle — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 18:50:00 +0000

Image by ~jjjohn~ via Flickr

It’s safe to say I can’t stand depression. I mean who does? It sucks, sucks, sucks. I know that it is a chemical tweak in my head, I know that things are better than they seem, I know that I won’t feel like this forever, but even with [...]